#i may regret this in the future
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
WIPS
I mentioned before that I came up with a full story about my ocs with members of Skz years ago, but it’s all in my head and it hasn’t seen the light. Since I’m still polishing it and considering if I should start posting bits about it, I’ll leave the plot here.
The oldest was Olivia and her love interest was Christopher Bang. The story was a childhood pen-pals/friends to co-workers to lovers. She lived in Australia for a while with her family and they befriended the Bang family. She was three years younger than him and had this puppy crush on him, and in return, he was very caring towards her and they often played together, sharing the burden of being both the oldest siblings. When she returned to Spain, her native country, they remained in contact through cute messages. Olivia had relatives in Australia, so they still travelled there from time to time, and each they had to meet up with the Bang family at least twice. She was heartbroken when he left to Seoul to follow his dream, but as time passed by and they lost contact, she moved on and stopped thinking much about him. She took upon herself to treat Hannah and Lucas like her own younger siblings to somehow deal with it. Olivia was gifted with a beautiful voice and had a talent for singing, which pushed her to become interested in songwriting and music producing. I recall she was involved in sports and that was the reason she went to Seoul for a while, but she had trouble adapting and mantenaining herself there, specially since she was keeping the situation hidden from her parents for some reason. She was offered a job in JYP until it was her time to move out and she took it. She knew Christopher became a trainee, but she never got to know which company, and so when they meet again, it was a cute moment. There’s a lot more, but I want to keep it short.
Violeta, or Vivi, was the second sister, two years younger than Olivia,and she was paired with Minho and Han, who were a couple in my work. She was fascinated by dancing as soon as she could walk and so started practising really young. Her dedication and passion moved her to become a professional and achieve a lot at a young age, pretty much like Olivia. I remember she had to use a prosthetic forearm due to a tragic accident in her childhood that was actually one of the major points in her character. She was captain of her own crew, member of a prestigious artistic academy and a “bad girl” type. A chaotic, extroverted troublemaker. She had a hard life and her biggest comfort was her dancing career, in which she excelled at. She travelled overseas in competitions, won, starred some scandals here and there, and gained a certain reputation as a professional who always owned the stage. Her plot started when Olivia and Chris were already a established couple, and her relationship with Minsung is full with ups and downs. I think it’s the most dramatic romance out of all. I know she used Vivi as a nickname for non-hispanic people that had trouble pronouncing her full name.
Then it was Melisa or Mel, Violeta’s twin, and her love interest was Hyunjin. This one I explicitily remember it was a full enemies to lovers one, with the enemies as one-sided because Hyunjin didn’t actually despise her. Aside from not really looking like Vivi, she was shorter than her, which was an important detail connected to their birth. She was the first introvert to appear, since the first two are the opposite. She had a talent for arts, like painting and photography, and she was in the same academy as Vivi as the brain behind the recordings, the edition and etc. She was an audiovisual artist. She was a rather innocent and sweet girl, but far from naïve. If pushed enough, she had a vicious bite, which was how she met Hyunjin. It was an unfortunate encounter, btw. Due to past experiences, she had the rule to never trust pretty faces, specially those who work in the entertainment industry. She was the type to observe things fold from the side and act upon them from behind, only intervening when she deemed it absolutely necessary.
The three of them are, obviously, spanish, and they were all very confident girls (because at that point I was sick of always reading the same patron of timid, insecure Y/Ns and I wanted to see something different). Olivia and Violeta could often seem like straight up egocentrics about it, while Mel just kept it to herself. Which makes this wip so dear to me is not because it’s a skz fanfic, but because it started sorely as self-insert oc for my fantasies with Christopher Bang and it developed into a full fledged story about generational trauma, friendship, growing up, copying mechanisms and multiple personal hardships the girls went through, both together and individually. I got so inmersed in their characters that they became their own people, with their own backstories and motives. They weren’t just self-inserts no more, they were fictional characters on their right with their goals and traumas aside from the boys. Literally, the romance with the boys was brushed a side a bit in favour of the girl’s development, because I got really into their personal stories that had nothing to do with the guys. I admit that I self-reflected a lot sometimes on them, writing them to let out my own emotions.
Anyway, my mind is full of headcanons about it, so that’s why I’m starting to post shit up here. I don’t know if I’ll have the courage to write the whole thing, but posting small things about it makes me feel better.
@channieandhisgoonsquad since you’re the only one that knew something about my specific, secret wip, opinions??
#i may regret this in the future#but i really needed to get it out#plus what's the worse thing that can happen?#weirder stuff has been seen on this site#yeah i pulled a type of bridgerton and wrote a story about each sister#it was intentional#i didn't like using the same oc to ship with the rest of guys and that's how the sisters were born#i wanted the new ocs to be connected with Olivia somehow so#it was easy#self-inserts#ocs#skz x reader#skz scenarios#skz stuff
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
*gives you a gay little kiss that feels like home*
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#lesbian#sometimes you may see a post from me and go:#why the fuck would she post that??#and wonder if i regret it#the answer is no <3#all my posts are bangers😤#esp this one#and that is NOT the exhaustion and lack of sleep talking#maybe it’s late and i have to be up#in five hours#and i came to the realization that ALL my kisses count as gay little kisses#and had to share that with the internet#okay and it’s a GOOD post😤😤😤😤#im not gonna see this at a time when im more sane and be like wtf#i’ll see it be like: wow that’s a great post#@ future me: u can fight me on this im right okay#god im so tired
3K notes
·
View notes
Text
me: idk i guess i'm not really into [specific kink] anyone: oh sorry then i won't show you t-- me: show it to me anyone: i thought you didn't like [specific kink] me: but how will i know if today is the day that changes? show it to me
#anyone: ...but you JUST said you don't really enjoy it?#me: i mean historically yes. i don't actively seek it out. but now you're here . and you have it. and i want to see it#[regret may or may not creep up on me after that]#i was trying to think of True Squicks i have#things that i just will not engage with. do not want to see. am actively looking away#but i don't really think... *furrows brow* i have Hard No's?#i've described this before where someone will walk in and say 'so my really niche kink is---'#and i just gently yet threateningly encase their entire handpawfin and state: 'OUR really niche kink'#if you were to show me nuca. ok. then show me whatever kink you got cookin for those fictional gays#even if i'm not on the hunt for it I WANT TO SEE WHAT YOU GOT#it could be the fic or pic or whatever else that shatters my entire worldview . who knows? i certainly don't! only one way to find out!!!!#this curiosity will surely punish me in the future. and yet i persist#my first answer when i was trying to come up with 'NO WAY's was poop#but. a pause.#if someone said they were really into it and wrote a fic about it#i would read it anyway LOL#'i will almost certainly dislike this and the concept grosses me but i am too intrigued and i must see my investigation to its completion'#i need to admire everyone's Freak bursting onto the scene#i need to collect the kink knowledge. the diversity of hornykind
18 notes
·
View notes
Photo
Nirvana in Fire and Reductress Headlines, Special Edition: Travels in The Fix-It Tag
#nirvana in fire#琅琊榜#mei changsu#xiao jingyan#jingsu#靖苏靖#reductress headlines#That Photoshoot#i'm sorry#(no i'm not i'm the i regret nothing chicken)#as previously stated#this is it for now though there may be more in the future#thanks all for accompanying me on this journey
389 notes
·
View notes
Text
Disabled people who shit talk their disability (and other disabilities) and think less of themselves if they don’t overcome their disability and are so full of self-hate and even go to social media or television to spread that kind of thought always raise in me some mix feelings.
The first reaction is anger. I’m angry at them for spreading such an abysmal view on disability and other disabled people and basically downgrading all the amazing work real disabled activists do everyday to make us see as humans and for having such horrible thoughts of a community they belong to.
They also trigger a very sensitive spot inside of me and I think they shouldn’t be given a platform to talk in such a way.
But then I try to calm down and rationalise and remind myself that I was in their shoes once.
That is basically internalised ableism which I, as many other disabled people, suffered from for a very long time.
Throughout my childhood and teenage years I would shiver at the idea of ending up in a wheelchair, I prayed that I would be healed and “fixed”, I would cry myself to sleep just to be normal. I hated myself.
I didn’t know any better. My parents didn’t teach me a better view because they didn’t know any better either.
You know what helped me accept and love myself? The disabled community.
All the amazing disabled creators, who talk about this topic in a healthy, empowering way.
So what I think is… disabled people who still suffer from internalised ableism are not our enemies. They are just people who haven’t found this community, who are still processing this difficult reality (and maybe they are newly disabled so that’s even more understandable). They are traumatised, they are suffering from the toxic views the able-bodied society puts on us. They probably don’t have a healthy support system, maybe just family and friends who are pushing them to get fixed, who are telling them to not give up to that kind of life. They think they are unlovable.
So let’s not shit on them. Let’s not insult them because that’s not how they will feel welcome into the community.
Instead, let’s encourage them to change view. Give them positive and empowering disability resources and examples.
#cripple punk#cpunk#disability#cripple#crip revolution#crip punk#disability justice#disability rights#disability pride#ableism#internalised ableism#disabled blogger#this may be related to a recent disabled person who went to an English program I think#and spread around lots and lots of ableism#it saddens me that there are still so many horrible stories about disability being spread on tv#but I don’t want to shit talk this person either#they might regret it in the future#I hope they find acceptance and self love
15 notes
·
View notes
Note
Some part of me feels sympathetic for monsta, like they already explained there were gonna be changes (Bel's only change is literally just him with a hat and no scarf)
But they for real are getting bullied for making changes in the show, like the comics right there. The fact you can tell that people will still complain even if they add the things from the comics as well
Monsta be having no wins fr 😔
You can be displeased with the changes and everything monsta is changing, but taking it to the extreme would be too much especially if theyre explaining why or if the reasons are reasonable
Also i think it makes sense if it was another studio who was adapting the comics and people are mad about it
But monsta made the comics, and also are the ones adapting it, its their property and they can decide to change things too
Its ok to critique them if it really is unfair or if you want to share an opinion and is reasonable with it
But i think it would be best to judge it all when every episode is out
#xoshi asks#xoshi answers#boboiboy#boboiboy galaxy#rambles#thoughts#it was fun seeing all the jokes#really it was but it seemed too much in some cases#or as in the different discusionsi see from the fans and their opinions on monsta#generally if you want to have a discusion about it its fine#it just seemed a little too unreasonable in some opinions i see#but i do enjoy seeing each opinion that has been out#its all interesting to say the least#i also may regret saying these in the future or may look like a hypocrite bc of this so yeah
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
adventure time, baby, I'm going to keep it real with you: you had the perfect meta setup (a spinoff of a children's cartoon made for adults who grew up with said cartoon) for a story about two characters desperate to return to simpler times (fionna longing for the subconscious memory of a fantasy land where nothing is complex and she won't have to face the trials of young adulthood in her now-mundane world, simon longing to lose his mind again so he won't have to remember his grief) coming to realize that the "simpler times" they remember were never as straightforward as their idealized memories (fionna realizing that her black-and-white worldview was actually just deeply biased and ultimately harmful, simon realizing that ice king was just as miserable as simon himself and simply lacked the tools to parse his own emotions), the idealized past they want to return to was never real, and in order to move forward, they have to face the painful realities they've been trying to avoid, mature as people, and learn to see beauty and value in their own respective lives, even if they're not the lives they'd hoped for
and then that didn't happen. there was a perfect metaphor for the false allure of nostalgia using THE "whimsical at first glance/shockingly grim under the surface" children's cartoon RIGHT THERE. How Did You Fuck That Up
#deerchatter#adventure time spoilers#i liked this series a lot but i was SO hoping the plot was a setup for a message along the lines of like#hey we know growing up is hard and you may well be tuning back into adventure time to escape the horrors of now being an adult#but this show was never the digestible silly good time you remember and neither was your childhood#don't you remember the pain? you were sad back then too except it was worse because you had no emotional tools to help yourself through it#did things seem simpler? they weren't. you hurt people and made poor choices without realizing it. you were young and didn't know any better#but you know better now. you have a responsibility to grow and learn and make better choices. this is a GOOD thing.#like do you see my vision!!!! the meta layers!!!! the potential for a painful but necessary message about choosing to grow+change+LIVE#taking a kind-but-critical eye to our childhood dreams and learning from them and applying nuance and learning to value complexity#fionna stagnating emotionally in early adulthood because of fear of the future+simon stagnating in his twilight years due to regret#aghhh i wish they'd gone for this SO BADLY it would have been the show of ALL TIME OHH#i did still like the ending a lot but. i was soooo hoping for this
36 notes
·
View notes
Text
it is kinda shocking I've never tried to write a time travel story cause I flirt with it a LOT but more like exactly in the way BTTF did it so I have nothing new to add, I just think every parent/child dynamic is just 1,000 times heightened when you view it through that lens. like Robert Zemeckis and Bob Gale were simply so so correct on that one
#all that being said#while it's not a concept i have an original take for#i may do some fanfic with it#cause i love the idea of time traveller's pig dipper and mabel being taken in by ford#they think he's stan#maybe he realizes that in the time they're from he and stan don't seem to have made up#and he starts to regret that he's lost what feels like his entire life with stan#and then time travel shenanigans#: o WHAT IF THEY ACCIDENTALLY DRAG FORD TO THE FUTURE#omg omg omg#i am THINKING
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
this is going to sound silly but
yknow that club night that I go to that I have mentioned on here a few times
the day after tomorrow I'm getting a tattoo for it and I'm so excited!!! I cannot wait!!!
#my fav dj from the club night designed the tattoo im getting#and im so excited to have it on my body forever#i realise it may sound a little silly#but this silly little club night means so much to me#and whilst there will be a time i stop going#(though that hopefully isnt for a good few years yet)#even when i do stop going#i will always have it on my skin#and i will look at it with fondness#because it isnt just a club night#its so many good memories#with good people#its a community#its something to look foreard to when i have had a bad week#i dont knoe what the last year and a half of my life would have been without that silly little club night#even if i regret the tattoo in the future when im old#im currently so excited to be getting it because it means a lot to me
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
If your boss comes to the office dressed like this what’re you gonna do
Bonus Comic under the cut:
#also this may just be a one time thing#tho the long skirt defo has more chance reappearing#mainly cuz G actually slays in it like man is ready for a catwalk#and we all know he’s gonna trip 100 times during a ten mile walk cycle#tag time!#geronimo stilton#William Shortpaws#pog draws#art#doodle#skirt#Pog’s OC(Serena Lovetail)#suit dress#idk what else to put here#comic#anywho I just know I’m gonna regret this sometime in the future so might as well enjoy it now while it lasts
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
An open letter to Roger Bart
Dear Roger,
Why are you making me have So Many Feelings over a dorky walking disaster scientist 😭?
That final note in “For the Dreamers” needs to have a “will rip your heart out” warning. The whole song does, really.
Thanks (I think…),
Rose of Pollux
#seeing this live on Broadway may have been a Mistake because I underestimated the Feels (I regret nothing tho)#also doesn’t help at all that Roger fits my ‘type’ of Rugged Renaissance Man that I admire like Robert Vaughn and Paul Frees#bttf#bttf the musical#back to the future#Roger Bart
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
(CW: EoD Spoilers — What Lies Beneath Spoilers)
So I was talking with @/saladposse last night about the oni section and what the oni might use to torment our Commanders.
#gw2#guild wars 2#eod spoilers#gw2 spoilers#living story spoilers#I don't have a dedicated commander — there's a new commander for every expansion/ls combo who I feel fits the vibes better#Sarabi's kind of the de facto though and while there's some regrets she has — her inner demons manifests in what ifs and self-hate#by that I mean things she knows are true about herself that she wants executed and burred 6 feet under#and while it may have started off with tybalt and the whispers#the next stage wasn't eir but the heat was turned up WAY FUCKING HIGH with almorra and the charr/drizzlewood being stage 2#the last stage would revolve around her bloodkin sister Kiarra and her niece and nephew#what would they think of her? the only thing she's poised to do is kill#how many lives is she willing to sacrifice? for the cause? for /her/ cause?#slashing her claws and gnashing her teeth at anything that moves — what happens when that's someone who looks up to her?#who she swore above anyone else to protect? so that they in their young lives could have a future?#the last demon would be her snapping to reality after pinning her nephew to the ground while her niece is pleading with her to stop#illusion fades away and it's rama being choked with gorrik holding a gun at her
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
so all the talk about land back along with abolishing the police, down with capitalism, all cops being bastards, punching nazis, being gay doing crimes, and black lives matter was just a fucking lie from yall huh
#its just so clear as day that so many people (mostly usa americans) are self centered people#they do not care about community or humanity or the liberation of the oppressed or for a better world and future#or the protection of the oppressed and similar#no they just care about their own skin. their own self#they do not care if you are lgbt or a person of color or disabled. they do not care if you go through a genocide#the actions from them have shown that#they care about themself and their comfort they only look out for themself and no one else#they will throw you to the side and push you under a crumbling building to save their own skin#im lucky that most of the people i follow arent like that#i just see it from palestinians i follow who reblog their own posts with screenshots or comments made by the most horrific people#truth be told - i dont care if these horrific self centered people wake up one day and regret their actions#i hope it haunts them that they turn their backs against genocide and lack humanity in their body#god god god may the power of the universe allow all indigenous people everywhere be free from colonization
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Drowning out my feelings with Dr. Pepper, falling back in love with Silence is Golden But Consequences Are Red, and thoughts of Mother Hen Wolf Shifter!Ghost
*rant in the tags if y'all want*
#i have been having entirely too many feelings lately#and not a time nor place to cope#I have been having far too many conversations about the future and it's starting to make me freak out#this aquarium trip was supposed to help me answer the questions I had about what schooling/degree I would need to be an aquarist#all it did though was make me realize that being an aquarist may not actually be right for me#which now means I don't know what I would be going back to school for#which sucks absolute ass because I miss being a student. I miss that freedom and I miss learning#i miss being a college student so badly actually and I honestly regret dropping out. Like I did before but now#I always told myself it was for the best cause it's better than failing a semester and tanking my GPA#but now I've been stuck in this horrible depressive cycle and feeling so fucking burntout I can barely function half the time#now I don't have any time or energy to do things I love let alone do some self learning#I currently don't see any point in going back to school cause I don't even know what I would go back for and it's fucking scary#all of my siblings have had major things happen and are progressing on with their lives#and like I get i'm barely even in my twenties and I shouldn't be panicking this badly about my life#I feel like half of my troubles are self inflicted even though they're really truly not#but I can't help but feel I've doomed myself and my motor functioning is worsening#my executive functioning is down the fucking toilet and I can't fucking fix it and it's upsetting me#but god i just had a birthday this past week and about three years ago when I started college#I really believed I'd be in a much different place at this age than I am now#and it's scary it's fucking terrifying and I don't know what the fuck I'm doing and all I am doing is spiraling really badly
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
i get why it's required but i wish class attendance didn't have to matter so much. like as long as I do well on the exams and writing assignments can u leave me alone fffrrrr
#i don't talk anyways🧍🏽♀️it makes no difference if i'm there or not#i'm being irresponsible today and skipping idc -_-#future me may regret <3
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
Robocop the series had 10$ in its VFX budget and i love that for it.
#It's so bad. and the show itself....isn't gonna be good#but kitschy#now I may regret this like I did Dark Skies down the line but for now it's charming#Robocop#Robocop the Series#The Future of Law Enforcement#Robocop Rewatch
5 notes
·
View notes